The bulk of the weight loss I experienced this week happened right at the beginning of the week. And I started my week counting a night time weigh in before my diet started. To make my number more realistic, I went ahead and used the number from the morning of Day 2. Even with that adjustment, the bulk of this weight was lost in the first three days. I have been at the same number for a couple of days now. It's kind of discouraging. But the fact that I legitimately lost four pounds this week is awesome!
The past several days have been frustrating for two reasons. One, I haven't seen any real loss. Two, I am still in my ten pound range that I've been playing with for the past two years, so I don't really feel like I've made any progress whatsoever, yet. I am about three pounds away from the point where I will start feeling like I am seeing numbers that haven't been on my scale for years. That will hopefully feel good.
I am finding that losing weight is a mental battle. Sometimes awesome weight loss is discouraging because I realize how much I still weigh even WITH the loss. It is a huge reality check about how high I really let my weight get. But I guess that is just all the more reason to stick with it.
This week I wasn't even tempted by a snicker's bar that a series of unfortunate events caused me to purchase. It is still in my back pack. I made cookies with my kids, and didn't eat one. (I did taste a small nibble of one, though, and I am not sure they turned out very well, so that definitely wasn't temping!) I also attended a scouting dinner and stuck with my own diet bar an hour after everyone else had eaten (since that was the schedule my food was on that day.) I think I've done well in resetting my relationship with food this week. And it is getting easier. I think having some more pounds fall off in the coming days will really help keep the motivation up, so I hope that happens. I knew the weight loss would slow, but the first few days seems to have such huge variances that I was really hoping to get rid of the first 16 pounds insanely fast. I'm still hoping that I can accomplish that goal in the first month. Those 16 pounds is my first "goal" because it puts me into the "overweight" category instead of "obese". I am currently 12 pounds away. Oh well, 12 pounds away is better than last week.
And seriously, four pounds in a week is awesome if not a little scary that it is perhaps not healthy or sustainable loss. So I should be happy. And although there are a lot of little voices in my head trying to ruin the celebration, there is a part of me that feels quite good about what I've accomplished.







