Well, we were a little overanxious in clearing out stuff we didn't know where to store when we moved in with my parents. One of the casualties was our Christmas Tree. It wasn't a great tree anyway - just a small scraggly thing that we picked up for $20 thinking that it would work while we lived in an apartment. And then we lived in an apartment year after year and everytime the tree seemed smaller and sadder so we finally decided that we didn't need it anymore. But as Andy was getting ready to leave for 4 months, I realized that I would find great peace in having a tree of my own downstairs.
Several years ago, I was up at USU and had a very difficult time emotionally. I still don't think I ever figured out what was wrong with me, and I suspect that there were some phycial complications triggering the emotional ones. But the end result is that what seemed like a very dark period of my life was made lighter from the Christmas Tree that sat in our dorm room kitchen. I had difficulty sleeping at night and would find myself alone, in the dark staring at that tree. We were up on the 4th floor and there was nothing as peaceful as watching the tree and seeing the snow fall out the window behind it.
So I decided, that as I am facing another Christmas Season with great potential for emotionality, that our own little Christmas Tree would be a nice little bandaid for me on those lonely nights that I might need it.
Without much money, or much space, we ended up buying a pre-lit tree that is a simple 4 1/2 feet. It is really cute and I am so glad that we got it. Ammon helped Andy set it up, and I love my Christmas Ornaments! I was also thrilled to get a picture of Andy and Peter for Peter's first Christmas. It almost even looks like Christmas morning since they are still in their pajamas.
Christmas this year has been a promising one. It is the first year that I haven't had to take a budget that is already too short to buy groceries, to try to invent a budget for presents. This year, we eat no matter what - and that has made things a lot more fun. It is also a promising year in that Ammon is a fun age and now we have another adorable little one in our family too. I think it would be our best Christmas yet if only Andy were here. We will miss him terribly, and our hearts will ache for him in his absence, but I think it will be a great day.
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