Andy is packing and I am stuck on the computer making blog entries and trying to pretend like he really isn't going to leave. Having him gone is going to be rough.
I will miss Andy as a partner in parenting our children. It is such a relief to have someone help out with the boys. Children are the most wonderful thing in life, but they are also an overwhelming responsibility. Taking care of them on my own for so long sounds exhasting. I am glad for a great family who will help out. I know I can particularly count on Mom to help with Peter, Rebecca will help with both boys and Katy to help entertain Ammon. I hope to be strong mentally and get through these challenging months with a lot of smiles and laughs even though it will be hard.
I will miss Andy in all the little things he does for me. Before we really started dating, I stayed home sick from school one day. He showed up on my door with flowers. He has always loved to do things like that and find silly little ways to take care of me. From making me an egg sandwhich at night (to make sure I go to bed with enough protien in my body) to getting me a glass of water, I can always count on Andy to help coddle me when I need to be pampered.
I will miss Andy for his strength. It is comforting to end the day by snuggling up in bed next to my big, strong guy. When we were first married (just after 9-11) I had many nightmares. Over time the nightmares went away. But I still like the security of having him there with me. It has been sad enough to have 2 nights a week for the last year when he was not there to sleep with me. Now he will be gone for 4 months and after that will be on a different sleep schedule for 2 of every 3 months. Other than him working graveyards, we almost always go to bed together - always have. I will miss him when he was gone; and I will miss him on this new schedule.
I will miss Andy for his friendship. More than anything, Andy is my friend. There has always been something about him that has enabled me to open up -to speak directly. With other boyfriends, and really, all other people, I find myself best able to communicate through writing. But with Andy, I noticed early on that I could speak straight to him and still get out what I was trying to say. That made him unique to me and I will miss having my best friend here by my side where I can share my feelings and talk about my life.
I am going to face these next few months with optimism and cheerfulness. But for a few more hours, I am just hiding in denial.
I will miss Andy as a partner in parenting our children. It is such a relief to have someone help out with the boys. Children are the most wonderful thing in life, but they are also an overwhelming responsibility. Taking care of them on my own for so long sounds exhasting. I am glad for a great family who will help out. I know I can particularly count on Mom to help with Peter, Rebecca will help with both boys and Katy to help entertain Ammon. I hope to be strong mentally and get through these challenging months with a lot of smiles and laughs even though it will be hard.
I will miss Andy in all the little things he does for me. Before we really started dating, I stayed home sick from school one day. He showed up on my door with flowers. He has always loved to do things like that and find silly little ways to take care of me. From making me an egg sandwhich at night (to make sure I go to bed with enough protien in my body) to getting me a glass of water, I can always count on Andy to help coddle me when I need to be pampered.
I will miss Andy for his strength. It is comforting to end the day by snuggling up in bed next to my big, strong guy. When we were first married (just after 9-11) I had many nightmares. Over time the nightmares went away. But I still like the security of having him there with me. It has been sad enough to have 2 nights a week for the last year when he was not there to sleep with me. Now he will be gone for 4 months and after that will be on a different sleep schedule for 2 of every 3 months. Other than him working graveyards, we almost always go to bed together - always have. I will miss him when he was gone; and I will miss him on this new schedule.
I will miss Andy for his friendship. More than anything, Andy is my friend. There has always been something about him that has enabled me to open up -to speak directly. With other boyfriends, and really, all other people, I find myself best able to communicate through writing. But with Andy, I noticed early on that I could speak straight to him and still get out what I was trying to say. That made him unique to me and I will miss having my best friend here by my side where I can share my feelings and talk about my life.
I am going to face these next few months with optimism and cheerfulness. But for a few more hours, I am just hiding in denial.
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