Waiting for the Jamba Juices

Friday, January 04, 2008

Waiting for the Jamba Juices

Last week I had a really cute conversation with Ammon while we were waiting for our Jamba Juices to get made.

"Hey Ammon, I love you!"
"I love you too, Mommy"
"Ammon, you are such a good big brother, do you like being a big brother?"
"Yes."
"Do you want to have more brothers and sisters someday?"
Excited gasp. "Mommy! Is there a baby in your tummy?"
"Yes, Ammon, there is!"
At which point Ammon yelled, "YES!!!!"

Last week I found out I was pregnant. 6 weeks. Andy was absolutely ecstatic, which surprised me a little - especially since it was unplanned. It was fun. I have been happier and happier every day - happier, probably, than I've been in a long time. The day after I had this conversation with Ammon, the first thing he did when he woke up was find his little brother, and in an unbelievably excited voice say, "Peter! Mommy has a baby in her tummy!!!" Ammon is so cute and LOVES being a big brother.

Things change, though. Yesterday I had a miscarriage and so I am no longer pregnant. I started bleeding in the middle of the night and went in for an ultra sound yesterday afternoon. They couldn't find anything. I should have been 7 weeks and they felt like that was far enough along to be able to see something. They did a blood test just to be sure, and the results showed in the low hundreds rather than into the thousands like it should have been. But I didn't have to wait for the blood test to realize what happened last night. And last nights events were pretty much expected after the ultra-sound yesterday afternoon, so basically it's just been letting nature take it's course. I'll go in for another blood test on Monday to make sure the hormone level is continuing to drop, and other than that I guess we just go forward from here. It's just a sad ending to a really happy week.

I told Ammon that I had something sad to tell him. "Ammon, there isn't a baby in Mommy's tummy anymore."
Confused as to why this was sad Ammon eagerly asked, "The baby came out?"
"I'm sorry Ammon, the baby's body did not know how to grow right and there isn't going to be a baby in Mommy's tummy for a while."
Ammon contemplated this for a moment with his best problem solving face and said, "I know! Peter can show it how to grow!"

I love that he has an answer for everything. I just wish it could have worked that way.

1 comment:

AnonymousJanuary 4, 2008 at 8:45 PM
Ammon is such a cute boy. I love his ability to think through a problem and find a solution.

Love you all.
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The First Presidency and Council of the Twelve Apostles of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints

We, the First Presidency and the Council of the Twelve Apostles of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, solemnly proclaim that marriage between a man and a woman is ordained of God and that the family is central to the Creator's plan for the eternal destiny of His children.All human beings—male and female—are created in the image of God. Each is a beloved spirit son or daughter of heavenly parents, and, as such, each has a divine nature and destiny. Gender is an essential characteristic of individual premortal, mortal, and eternal identity and purpose.In the premortal realm, spirit sons and daughters knew and worshiped God as their Eternal Father and accepted His plan by which His children could obtain a physical body and gain earthly experience to progress toward perfection and ultimately realize his or her divine destiny as an heir of eternal life. The divine plan of happiness enables family relationships to be perpetuated beyond the grave. Sacred ordinances and covenants available in holy temples make it possible for individuals to return to the presence of God and for families to be united eternally.The first commandment that God gave to Adam and Eve pertained to their potential for parenthood as husband and wife. We declare that God's commandment for His children to multiply and replenish the earth remains in force. We further declare that God has commanded that the sacred powers of procreation are to be employed only between man and woman, lawfully wedded as husband and wife.We declare the means by which mortal life is created to be divinely appointed. We affirm the sanctity of life and of its importance in God's eternal plan.Husband and wife have a solemn responsibility to love and care for each other and for their children. "Children are an heritage of the Lord" (Psalms 127:3). Parents have a sacred duty to rear their children in love and righteousness, to provide for their physical and spiritual needs, to teach them to love and serve one another, to observe the commandments of God and to be law-abiding citizens wherever they live. Husbands and wives—mothers and fathers—will be held accountable before God for the discharge of these obligations.The family is ordained of God. Marriage between man and woman is essential to His eternal plan. Children are entitled to birth within the bonds of matrimony, and to be reared by a father and a mother who honor marital vows with complete fidelity. Happiness in family life is most likely to be achieved when founded upon the teachings of the Lord Jesus Christ. Successful marriages and families are established and maintained on principles of faith, prayer, repentance, forgiveness, respect, love, compassion, work, and wholesome recreational activities. By divine design, fathers are to preside over their families in love and righteousness and are responsible to provide the necessities of life and protection for their families. Mothers are primarily responsible for the nurture of their children. In these sacred responsibilities, fathers and mothers are obligated to help one another as equal partners. Disability, death, or other circumstances may necessitate individual adaptation. Extended families should lend support when needed.We warn that individuals who violate covenants of chastity, who abuse spouse or offspring, or who fail to fulfill family responsibilities will one day stand accountable before God. Further, we warn that the disintegration of the family will bring upon individuals, communities, and nations the calamities foretold by ancient and modern prophets.We call upon responsible citizens and officers of government everywhere to promote those measures designed to maintain and strengthen the family as the fundamental unit of society.

This proclamation was read by President Gordon B. Hinckley as part of his message at the General Relief Society Meeting held September 23, 1995, in Salt Lake City, Utah.